Thoughts From MY Cluttered Mind offers positive angles to the issue that faces those with mental illness. Living with Bipolar Disorder myself and being able to share my experiences with others, is the best way I know how to pay it forward. Life can be difficult, my goal is to bring a bit of hope to a place where many feel there is none.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
I saw God today
I stepped outside ready to take in its beauty, but when my feet hit the still undisturbed snow I slipped landing on my butt, using my right hand to break my fall. It’s instinct, but usually does not end well. Now I sit here with a splint on my hand – nursing a sprained hand/thumb) could have been worse, so I am grateful.
It was later in the day when God arrived. I let our dog out in the back yard, and as he ran through the snow, enjoying the freedom, I felt peace. While it had snowed overnight, the day was warm and much of 2inches we had received had already melted. I stood in the yard looking at the sky, perfect blue, a few clouds and sun shining bright. I felt an amazing calm and joy – it wasn’t because of anyone thing, it was just peace in the moment.
I get excited about days like this because sometimes they are few and far between – so their arrival is cause for celebration and acknowledgment. In everything today I see life and hope, peace and what can be. I look at my photography, the pictures that hang in my office and I can see life in them, they speak to me. I can see again why I took the shot.
My doctor will be happy for this realization. Especially after I missed my appointment last week. (I wrote down the wrong day on my calendar)
I saw God today.