Thoughts From MY Cluttered Mind offers positive angles to the issue that faces those with mental illness. Living with Bipolar Disorder myself and being able to share my experiences with others, is the best way I know how to pay it forward. Life can be difficult, my goal is to bring a bit of hope to a place where many feel there is none.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

The Rationality of Disability

450 mm by 450 mm (18 in by 18 in) Handicapped Accessible sign, made to the specifications of the 2004 edition of Standard Highway Signs (sign D9-6), Manual on Uniform Traffic Control Devices (MUTCD), Federal Highway Administration, Department of Transportation, US Government. Colors are from http://mutcd.fhwa.dot.gov/kno-colorspec.htm (Pantone Blue 294), converted to RGB by http://www.reeddesign.co.uk/test/pantone2rgb.html. The outside border has a width of 1 (1 mm) and a color of black so it shows up; in reality, signs have no outside border.Image via WikipediaOk - well after years of contemplating the idea, my doctor and I decided to submit the paper work for disability. There was do doubt in my mind that it would be approved and I would no longer have to worry about the stress and mood swings that all to often come with trying to hold down a job. I had 3 Psychologists and Psychiatrists behind me who believed wholeheartedly that I could not work.

What I received instead was a letter from the SSI people that - now pay attention - "You have not worked enough to collect Disability." I sat and read the letter again - I have not worked enough? WELL DUH!!!! That was the point!

So, here we find a Catch 22 situation - in order to collect disability I have to work,
but I can not work, so I can not collect disability until I work.

And they think MY mind is confused! Ha!

So what do I do now? Work part=time for a friend of mine who understands my illness and will work with me when I need some time to regroup and get my feet back on "solid ground." It is frustrating and I know I could fight it - my brother-in-law is a lawyer, but do I want to go through all that crap?

I am trying to understand the stupidity of it all.
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